For Today

Well, my first two weeks as a half-time entrepreneur were interesting. I did a lot of work, but I can’t tell you what it was like. My mind was taken over by an obsessive anxiety attack. I didn’t sleep. I tried to work every waking minute. I checked my web site obsessively. No sales. If anyone had even thought about buying something from me, I’m sure that my fear and desperation were transmitted through the ether and scared them off. It was horrible.

I’m now in the process of trying to regain my sanity. I’m making self-care a higher priority. The tipping point was when I was trying to imagine what luxury meant to me. The answer was “a clean clutter-free home.” Hmmm. That may be something I could get even if I have no money. And the feeling of luxury might help with the blinding panic. So I’ve been working on that. It helps.

I’m finding other things that help too. I’m looking for advice from other business people. I’m looking to the spiritual advice that always helps me. This time to work on my business is validating for me that I do like to do this work. I’ve had days when I’ve been sure that no one would ever want to buy what I make and I’m a complete fool to think that they might, but I know that I’d enjoy it if I was successful.

I’ve decided to take things one day at a time. For today, I have everything I need. For today, I have plenty of time to work on my business and take care of myself. For today, life is pretty good and I’m going to enjoy it.